This week, it seems I’ve been at war. With myself. So I decided this morning when my feet hit the floor that the war is over. It’s time for a peace treaty.
It seems that lately we’ve been bombarded with images and words about what is real (or not), what is beautiful (or not), what is right (or wrong). And I have to confess, I let it sink in a bit. I hopped on the scale. I compared myself to others. I judged myself against some standards I can’t meet (and if I’m being really honest, I don’t want to). Have you let yourself go there? I understand…I was there, too. It’s a war zone.
It hit me early Thursday morning..literally hit me: I broke my toe. And as I was assessing the damage, I started studying my foot. I saw all the little rough spots from being barefoot and in the yoga studio so much. That was my A-HA moment…I stopped long enough to be grateful for all that mat time. I was grateful for my little scraggly foot and how it got there. I will not get hired to be a foot model. But I share a lovely yoga practice with you any time I get the chance.
I was overwhelmed by this feeling of relief. I got it. I had choose to celebrate that moment and that discovery. I had to be at peace with what is, and grateful for it. And, I had to make a decision to choose to do that every time the opportunity appeared. Believe me, there were lots this week. I didn’t make this choice early enough to escape without harm. But, as I say often, I am a work in progress. Progress was made.
Now, please don’t be fooled. This is not the first time for this particular bolt of lightning to strike. This lesson is one that I’ve learned again and again. I may have to learn it all over tomorrow. But what I can do is practice…I can shut down that voice that says “you’re too_____, you’re not ________.” I can stop it by yelling at the top of my lungs, “OH, HELL YES, I AM.” Even if I only yell in the mirror…
I have a plan. Every time the voice starts up with something negative, I am reframing it. With gratitude. The only perfect I can ever be is me. When I lose sight of that, the war rages. So the treaty shall stand. NO MORE WAR. I AM WILDLY, FABULOUSLY, IMPERFECTLY ME.
YOU ARE WILDLY, FABULOUSLY IMPERFECTLY YOU.
See how that works… I am giving myself this gift. A Peace Treaty. I’m sure I’ll have to give it over and over. And over and over. But it will be worth the effort and practice. Because I am worth the practice and effort.
So are you…Namaste.