I had the good fortune to spend part of last weekend with some of my dearest friends. The bonus was that we were able to share space together practicing yoga. It had been some time since we’d all been together, so we were giddy in the first place. But to share that space, well…that was icing on the cake.
The instructor led us for an hour and one half, which actually felt like about ten minutes. As he directed us about moving our bodies, he also led us to move our minds. To shift. To dig down into the dark spaces. To breathe down into those places and lift up into light. He commented that we work so hard on the exterior, that we sometimes neglect the interior (if any of you who attend with me read this, forgive the paraphrase). Let that sink in…
I felt amazing during and after that practice. Lifted. Broken open. I felt like I’d been able to crack those deeply formed shells. And where those cracks were, deep down, stayed open. They needed to stay that way.
When I woke up before the moon fell Sunday in the wee hours, I still had that feeling. That feeling of almost floating. I felt light. And I realized the cracks were still there. I was reminded of the Japanese tradition of Kintsukroi. This art is the repair of broken pottery with gold or silver lacquer, and the understanding that the piece is all the more beautiful for being broken. I like to believe that lightness I felt was the sliver and gold filling those cracks.
It’s only been a few days since, but I am still feeling the effects of that practice. I’ve set the intention to remain broken open. To allow those broken places to be filled with light. To be grateful for the experiences of breaking and healing. To recognize that each break was necessary. To bask in gratitude for the blessing that have received form those lessons.
Over time, have you been broken? Have you allowed yourself to be broken open? Be willing to go there. And fill the cracks with gold and silver. You’re all the more beautiful for it.